Catelynn Lowell Confesses She Thought About ‘Driving Off The Highway’ & Killing Herself Throughout Melancholy


Practically eighteen months after coming into remedy for suicidal ideas, ‘Teen Mother OG’ star Catelynn Lowell has opened up about her psychological well being struggles and the ‘trauma’ of giving her first youngster up for adoption.

“It was after we struggled with a miscarriage, and I saved waking up with panic assaults, they usually weren’t going away — it was for, like, two weeks,” Catelynn Lowell, 27, stated in the course of the June 14 episode of the Actuality Life With Kate Casey podcast. Throughout the dialog, the Teen Mother OG star opened up the choice to hunt remedy in 2017 after experiencing suicidal ideas. “And I believe once you preserve waking up with panic assaults time and again, it leads me right into a melancholy. I simply bear in mind pondering like, ‘I don’t wanna get up like this anymore.

“I used to be simply pondering random issues like, ‘I’m gonna drive off the street and hit that pole,’ or pondering of all these completely different ways in which I may commit suicide,” stated Catelynn [around 9:00 in the episode]. “And, I believe that’s actually – I used to be in the home, [Novalee Baltierra] was at school. Tyler [Baltierra, 27] was with our producers they usually had been like doing yoga or one thing. I used to be on the home on my own. and I bear in mind [Tyler] had a belt hanging up on one of many hooks in our bed room, and I bear in mind pondering to myself, ‘I may completely use that belt and wrap it round my neck and simply be accomplished with it.’ “

When Tyler and the producer got here again, Catelynn stated she “was simply trustworthy with them. I’m actually pondering all these loopy issues. I believe I have to get assist earlier than I do one thing dangerous, one thing I’ll remorse. I have to do one thing.” Catelynn stated that she sought assist the following day. “The place I went to was extraordinarily useful and helped me get on the appropriate remedy.” The Teen Mother OG star stated she went by way of genetic testing to seek out out that her physique “was not even metabolizing” the remedy she had been taking for 5 years. “I used to be taking 200mg of that remedy and my physique was solely getting 60mg. …it wasn’t doing something helpful.”

After she obtained on the appropriate remedy and underwent some remedy, Catelynn was in a position to make some headway along with her psychological well being. She labored with a trauma therapist to work on an enormous a part of her previous: giving her first daughter, now 10-year-old daughter, Carly, up for adoption. “I believe any girl who locations a baby up for adoption, it’s a traumatic expertise for them,” she stated. “My counselor there taught me that it’s okay to be unhappy about it generally, and it’s okay to be like, ‘wow, it sucks generally,’ and likewise really feel the nice too. However you must really feel the [sadness] of it too. You possibly can’t simply brush it off. To be able to get higher, you must really feel no matter you’re feeling, whether or not it’s unhappy, offended, comfortable.”

Since taking these steps to deal with herself, Catelynn has discovered happiness with Tyler. The 2 welcomed their third youngster, daughter Vaeda, in February. She and Tyler have even discovered a dwelling association that works, as she stated that taking a break from dwelling underneath the identical roof has really strengthened their relationship.